A lot of extremely unfortunate and downright ridiculous things have happened with the Finnish healthcare system in the last six months. Looking at the state of this country and how it continues to neglect its most vulnerable is becoming more and more painful by the day: I struggle to recognize this place as the beautiful country I have grown to know and love. It genuinely feels like the welfare system is being torn apart right in front of our eyes by the greedy right-wing politicians who only care about making the richer under the guise of “fixing the national economy”.

And Don’t Say It’s The Ward

Very often, I have medical professionals ask me what kind of treatment I am looking for. This has always confused me, because how am I, someone with no training on psychiatry, supposed to know the exact kind of treatment that would help me the most? For the past year or so, this has continued to become a recurring thing, and each time, I am left just as baffled as the last.

But what about the times when I have known exactly what I would have needed, kept asking for it, and instead got turned down and told to deal with the worst of it on my own? Sadly, I have had way more instances of this happening than the slightly annoying question of “what do you want us to do for you”.

“Just Ask For Help”

People have always had all kinds of assumptions about me. For a very long time, I cared a lot about how others perceive me, what they thought of me, whether they liked or disliked me. Over the years, though, this has become increasingly more unimportant to me, as now in the prime age of 25 years old, I have a lot of far more crucial things to worry about. But there is still one thing that really bothers me when it comes to all the colorful ideas complete strangers have of me, particularly in online spaces.

They think I have never done anything to fend for myself, or to help myself with the bullying I faced as a Kid.