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First Time I Opened Up
When I was 12 years old, my parents took me so see a psychologist for the first time. I was having constant night terrors, not being able to fall asleep, and the fear of being watched by someone unknown in the shadows of my dark room made me chronically paranoid. I heard every single noise in the apartment complexes my parents lived in and thought that it was always someone walking in the apartment when there was no one there except for me and my furbaby. The night terrors got so bad that I started to suffer from insomnia, and that’s when my parents knew they had to step in, and they took me to the family counselor office to see a psychologist who specialized in working with children.
Girls?!
When I was eleven years old, I got my very first professional sketchbook. It was marketed to be specifically for artists that were looking for that authentic manga feel to their art – it even had a silly image of some anime boy on the cover. I was so excited to start drawing like a professional, to have a legit sketchbook with legit manga lineart pens, just for drawing all those pretty anime girls.
Even When I'm Alone
I think I was around twelve years old when I started to fear the shower. I remember taking showers when there was nobody home but me and our cat, just how scared I was of my surroundings. It didn't make any sense to me back then; I was home, and home was a safe place for me. But it's like that didn't matter at all, the environment was irrelevant.